The Manx Den

Sigh… If I could I’d write a really long, beautiful tribute and all that, but this is really just an update to current events with my father-in-law. They gave up chemotherapy monday last week, and he’s had his ups and downs. Good days, bad days.. Hubby and I have been at their house every day this week, and I’m pretty well worn out. Not even been on the Muck and really RPing, because I’m tired when I get home, or it’s time top eat a meal – or just wanting to spend time with hubby.

We are supporting eachother through all this, though it is a first time for me, and the effects aren’t really predictable. It’s a beautifuul spring – getting wonderfully warm and everything! There are moments of cheer, and others in which I sigh. Gramps (hehe.. I always want to call him that) started seein white flashes in his eyes on saturday, and that’s not a good sign for the cancer that is in his brain. It’s really his will to live that is keeping him going, and we don’t know if we can expect him to live 3 weeks or three months.

Either way things have been going quickly with getting things planned. Mom-in-law chose a cementary plot, Mike and his brother reviewed how to handle cleaning up dad’s personal effects once things are over with (IE, how to handle moving things, storing them where, how to get most reminders out of mom’s eyesight), mom told how she wants things dealt with onthe day he goes…

I think the thing that bugs me the most is how folk talk as if the poor fellow’s already gone. I’d have a fit if people did that to me! “Hellooo, I’m not six feet under yeeeet!”

My health is giving me a bit to complain about too. Not my arm, it’s doing real well – It was operated tuesday two weeks ago to put in bone instead of waiting for the arm to grow back together. I had aches before, but not right now. Myyeehh.. It’s my diabetes pills. I take a hormonal supplement besides insulin that helps regulate my metabolisim, and my prescription ran out a while ago. I’m all dizzy and slow, and today my blood sugar has been up in the sky because I can’t utilize the sugars right. I’ll be getting my RX renewed as soon as the doc’s office is open though. These things always happen on holidays and weekends!

Well, not everything is down in the dumps though… Hubby is being pretty sweet these days. <3 Mrrrr.. lurv.