Y’all know, hopefully, by my earlier posts that I’m working to fight off habits that, from my earlier days, kept me rather bound to certain patterns of behavior. Cybersex, romantic fantasies, daydreams- well, it seems to me they occupied almost all of my day hours, and to an extent they certainly did.
It’s been the Daily Audio Bible I’ve been listening to every morning. Since about 1/3 through December, as I remember it, and a few pleasing changes have been in the making. When I pray, I’m learning to listen for comfort and words from the Holy Spirit. I feel hugs, and gentle whispers of things like ‘my child’ in being answered back. It sounds strange, yes, I know, but experience has taught me always to compare these things against the pattern of scripture. Hah, what a story it was when I mistook something else for the Holy Spirit!
Anyways, I digress. I titled this blog entry ‘a good dream’- not because I had a special dream or any such. I called it that because changing my daily patterns and learning to pray, and talk to God in prayer- heck, to focus in on that instead of jumping from one struggle to the next, life feels a little like a good dream instead of something I need to hide away from.
Guuh, I feel like I’m writing things that most folk won’t understand. Just.. maybe some of my readers will get the idea, but I know it looks incredibly nonsensical to the rest!
Anyways, a family member has helped us with what we needed to cover the electrical bill, and it turned out to cover precisely what we needed. Pretty much to the letter, because as really bad bills do, they’re always higher than expected, even when you have a ballpark idea of how much you’re going to have to
pay!
My dog is looking at me expectantly- my computer is playing an odd enough bit of music from an internet radio station. She wants a walk.