The Manx Den

Someone help me
out of this place of dry bones
this valley where they thought
putting mercury in my teeth was mercy

They poisoned me
my suffering worsened that day
my sleep dissappeared
slowly like the vapor  that leaked in

God heard me when I cried out
I said ‘help me’, this is too heavy
‘I cannot sleep, I am scared’
‘I give in, I need you, I am sorry’

‘Forgive me for misusing’
‘The great gift you gave me of my life’
‘To satisfy myself with lust’
‘Was not the same as real love from You’

God has heard my cries through every night
When I thought my hope was gone he said,
‘I still love you, more than …

*big grin* I just accomplished my first 24 hours of fasting. I’m happy! I’ve accomplished something I’ve been warned against since getting type 1 diabetes. I’m insulin-dependant. Addicted even! But I spent a whole day avoiding food (I even cooked chili for today) and lowered my basal rate when excercising, etc. I have used my current supplements as normal, which has really helped me to feel when my blood sugar is swinging one way or another.

Really my reasons for going twenty-four hours with just water, tea and my nutritional supplements and a light dose of perscription medicines was:

1. To prove to myself I can
2. To see what would happen
3. To take the supplements at 1-2 hour intervals to see

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